Ok I have recently decided that I have a problem. A reading problem. Like Crack. I recently started the twilight series....by recently I mean I started reading on December 27th...causally...and anyone who knows this series would know that each book is between 600-700 pages in length. Lets just say exactly 10 days later I have read ALL FOUR books in the series...
Staying up till 1:30 every night just DEVOURING pages and hiding my book in my desk drawer at work to get a page in here and there. I took my book to the gym and would loose all connection to my body for hours at a time because I was so involved in the book. I would be on the bike pedalling like a mother and not even noticing for 40...50...60 or even 70 minutes in a sitting and would repeat it again on the eliptical, the treadmill without even noticing. I would have my book in my lap driving to work...reading during red lights...I know, I am a HAZZARD. Since I was a child I was like this...I would live vicariously through the characters of the book I was reading. I would absorb their emotions, their problems...I wouldn't eat or concentrate on my own life. My mom called me an 'Empath' which means you absorb the feelings and personality traits of the people you are around because you have such a strong need to 'empathize'. I need to stay away from the depressed, angry and dangerous less i become one of them.
Speaking of which, I need to say this....Bella (the main character in Twilight) infuriates me with her weaknesses in New Moon....how she totally depends and devotes all her time and detention on the men in her life. She makes women look pathetic. having to read about her devestating breakup with Edward made me have to relive mine with Roger. The pain the feeling of you inside breaking you apart, the gaping hole in your abdomen....She made me go through it again but at least I didn't cling to another man the way she did, completely obsess about spending my time with someone else to avoid the pain in my chest. I wanted to slap her as badly as I felt FOR her...Like i took a peice of what she was feeling and made it my own. Again.
Anyway. Now i need to get myself back into 'Jamie' mode. And try to overcome the need to find a new series to devour. I need a break to feel like me. It is exhausting being so many people in a day. Wow I sound psychotic. ha ha. All for now, this weekend is comming at me fast and I am torn between two plans....arg. Tired of being torn....until next time loyal blog readers....
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It may seem juvenile, but have you read the Harry Potter series? They are good and totally addictive!
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